Saturday, 28 February 2009

Midnight Ramblings...



I found this on Ali Edwards' Blog tonight & it is totally relevant to how I feel about life right now.

Souza :
For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This persective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.

Now, the real challenge is actually taking those words to heart & living them. I would rather not. I would rather just step off the radar & fade into oblivion. That's how I feel right now. I know it's wrong so I will try to get over it. I have many reasons for feeling this way, too many to mention & too boring for you to read. I don't want to feel this way, I just do. I know that I am blessed & have a lot to be thankful for. I'm trying to tell that to myself but it isn't working.

Hubby is still employed so for that I am grateful. Life is hard & it just doesn't seem to get any easier. I love being happy & positive but I'm just not feeling it at the moment. The New Year is not even 2 months old & so far I haven't been able to acheive so much of what I set out to do. Circumstances just keep changing & the "obstacles" keep appearing around every corner. Sorry if this post is boring but I need to record it for myself so no need to comment if you're already asleep...

7 comments:

Penny said...

Here goes, let's try! It seems I can leave a comment, but I do have a Google account.Sorry to hear how you're feeling - probably quite natural after the things you've been through! I think the crochet flowers sound wonderful, and have a few scrappy friends who might be interested here.

Kirsty said...

sorry you feeling down! Hope things get easier soon! x

Mette Thomas said...

Ditto - i hear you life is hard and most of the time i just want it to go away but this "hard"life is mine and i am slowly learning to love it howeer hard it may be.

Take care
Mette

jax said...

I'm feeling just the same so understand totally how you feel. BUT, still doesn't sound like you! Who are you and what have you done with Helen?
Thank you for my stunning Birthday present - it is all much appreciated. Jax

Monique said...

Oh Helen, I know just how you feel (feel exactly the same and no, I won't be boring you with the details) and the only thing I can tell you that (in all probability) life will get better, maybe not now, but sometime it will! Just remember that and try to be positive! Sometimes it helps to take a little time for yourself to do things just for you that you enjoy! Good luck and I really hope things will get better soon!
Hugs,
Monique

Desire Fourie said...

Your quote is so true i.e. Happiness comes from within and no one and nothing can make us happy, if we are not happy in ourselves. I know this is easier said than done and often it feels like life is just bearing down so hard on us. Whenever I get this feeling, I always visualise myself within a happy moment previously experienced. But each of us are so unique and have different ways and means of making ourselves happy. Hugs from Desire

Andrea said...

We all have hard time, that is what makes the good times so wonderful....without the bad we wouldn't have anything to compare the good against. Hang in there, the wheel will turn I am sure and soon you will be back on top.

xxx
A