I'm sure that's not what you were hoping to hear so
I'm so sorry to be taking up your inbox or reader
space with such negativity, but a blog is a blog and
there's an unwritten rule about being truthful on it isn't there?!
Yes I've just been to Gauteng for the weekend for my
uncle's 60th "Birthday Bash" and that was fun - photos to
follow shortly...so that's not the problem, I just haven't
enjoyed this year *to date*.
When I was away in the Drakensberg I had great plans for
2012. Firstly I wasn't expecting one of our good friends
to have a heart-attack and go from bad to worse...Nor
was I expecting to feel as disorganised and out of control
as I do right now. My 2 weeks away was desperately
needed but I haven't come up for air since I returned and
quite frankly I'm getting tired of it already (before January
is out!! Oooh dear...not a good sign!!)
I have had to spend some time with my attentions
elsewhere this year - on some simple house projects that
have been disastrous (as is usually the case in this Province
which is why I've been loathe to take them on before).
There is a lack of skilled artisans in Durban and it shows...
And on a weight-loss/exercise program that is simple
and elementary (for "normal" people perhaps) but for
me it's an uphill climb and I'm less than a month in!!
I am (only just) up to date on my Design Team work
but seem to be scraping my deadlines by the skin
of my teeth, and I hate that, but that's how it's working
out ALL THE TIME at the moment - which makes
me an unhappy chickie :(
So I am chasing my tail, still trying to get up to
date with my e mails and blog reading from
when we were away a month ago, and not having
the time to swoon over all the CHA sneaks around,
and I just feel BEHIND.
I think I'd feel better if there was a little more
reward for all my hard work but I haven't had a
very illustrious scrappy year so far, with a number of
disappointments,and no matter how hard you try, that's
ultimately corrosive. It's disheartening. Cumulatively
disappointing...That's the truth...It's hard to keep going when
you wonder if you are getting anywhere fast...